I’m Lily Montez I’m 51 years old I was born in a family of 4 girls and one boy and I’m the last born It was a good family we were living peacefully, I used to study and had a purpose of becoming an important person but one day my dreams were destroyed.
When I was only 17 years old my daddy told me to go buy some products in the shop of one of his friends I went and the man I mean the shop owner told me to enter and take what I wanted for myself but I didn’t know that he had a target of rapping me, I entered and he came after me and immediately closed the door I screamed too much but finally he forced me to have sex with him from that day I was in danger because after few days I started to show signs of pregnancy.
I couldn’t dare hiding those signs and my mum and sisters found out that I was pregnant, they couldn’t understand me, they chased me away from home because they couldn’t believe that the friend of my father could rape me. I started to struggle I slept in the dangerous forest as I had nowhere to go, I decided to go to that seller who impregnated me, he tried to ignore me but I insisted I remained in his house we lived together but I had neither peace nor happiness because he could insult and beat me non-stop wanting me to leave him but I kept on enduring all those sufferings.
The time reached, I gave birth to a baby girl but honestly it was very difficult to feed her as I had no ability to search for my own food and the man was very careless for sure the situation was too difficult to survive. I remember, once I decided to throw the baby in the forest not because I don’t love her but because I did not want her to die in front of me. It was in the night, I left her in the forest but few meters away, my heart started beating hardly, I went back to bring her.
From that day, I started finding love in me and decided to leave that man and went to live on my own, and started struggling to get my own food and feed my baby. As day went by, she grew up but seeing her could damage my mind and broke my heart because she reminded me all the hard times that I’ve been through and still struggling in. My heart used to blame her father so it was difficult for me to love the daughter of the man who didn’t love us but as a mother I tried take care of a girl and struggling a lot for her to study.
I even used to teach her mostly focusing on having good habits and how to prevent herself from danger because I didn’t want her to be in hard conditions like mines. She understood me too much and she worked hard to make me happier I tried to love her thought it was difficult, she later finished her studies and get a good job she is an industrial engineer.
we are now living a better life and she is supporting me as much as she can. I am helping her raise her children as she has to work hard and her husband travel a lot as he is an international salesman. We have everything that we need at home. We are thankful.
Whatever we pass through, we have to fight harder and harder, we have to find courage in us to make good decisions, we have always to be patient and once the morning star will raise for us.
